Amusing

It a rare instance when my little town has ice on the streets that won't melt during the day. Usually when and if we get snow, it's gone before the next evening. Coming home for lunch today I was in awe that the streets were in no better condition now than they were this time yesterday. I find that.... amusing. One week and one day from today I plan on having my toes ankle deep in the sand. I plan on drinking iced tea adorned with little umbrellas, and I plan on having the sun warm my frost bitten fingers as I pick up sea shells on the seashore.... Yep, I'm planning a lot of amusing things.

TBI Recovery, Living With A New Me: Month Five

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Winter Frost

The winter wind chills the air, but nothing like your stare chills my heart

Where once there was warmth, now there is just a void of regret

Ice cold fingers wrap around my heart like a noose around a nape

Flakes of bitterness land on my lashes, turning to tears

Resolutions of the past haunt my dreams  

The echo of my sorrow wakes me from the night

As the rhythm of a heart now wounded becomes melody of my day

The mystic illusion of my affection is surrounded by a barrier of grief 

Yet in the naked misery of anguish I find a cavern of hope

That while the brokeness may linger and wholeness may allude 

I'm overwhelmed with hunger for the fullness I find in you

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The Playfulness of God

As luck would have it, they sent us home today shortly after we got to work. The snow was blowing furiously and coming down hard. When the snow finally let up and the sun came out to play, I dug out my ski clothes, saddled up the horses... well dog the size of a horse and headed out for a walk. It was perfect outside!!! Although there was a thin sheet of ice under the snow, the 14 inches on top of it, made it of little concern. The wind was cold and straight out of the North, but that's what ski clothes and snow boots are for. The snow was fluffy and deep.... perfect!  Snow drifts where here and there along our walk, Sometimes Riley, my Bulldog would be belly deep and plowing the way with her flat face. Sailor, my Mastiff helped pull me along when the snow became packed on my boots making it difficult to walk in the drifts. We walked downtown where the streets were deserted except for the City trucks out sanding the roads. When we headed back toward the house we were walking directly into the North wind. I had left my fir hood at the office so the wind blew my hair back and my ears were numb. My nose began to run and my eye teared up from the cold wind. It was the best walk ever!!! Put me on the beach with my toes in the sand and cold waves wrapping around my ankles, or plunk me down in the middle of a snow drift with the wind blowing through my hair and my mind will immediately turn to the Creator of the universe. No one will ever convince me that God doesn't have a playful side, because I've had the occasion to play with him many times. Each and every time I experience the playfulness of God one thing sticks out in my mind. I have never felt more alive than I do when I'm playing with God and enjoying his creation. Today was one of those times.

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The Best of Both Worlds

At 4:30 a.m. my husband sat beside me on the bed gently shaking my arm... "Wake up Jac, I want to show you something." He led me all sleepy eyed to the bathroom window where the world below was covered in a snowy blanket. I stood at the window and jumped up and down,clapping my hands like a little girl getting a new bicycle. I love, love, love snow and we get so little of it here. I managed to run around the back yard with my dog before having to drive to work. There are approximately myself and 3 other people here today. When I woke up I was actually having a dream that I was on

an island, playing in the water and sand with a bunch of high school kids. So I've had the best of both worlds already today and it's not even 9 o'clock in the morning. "Sometimes I've believed as many as 6 impossible things before breakfast." (quote from Alice In Wonderland)